Life is Change

What is it about coming changes that gets my heart pounding, my head aching and my thoughts swirling in circles? It's not exclusive to negative changes. This time I should be happy. I should be excited. And yet I want to avoid thinking about it, I want to stay up late playing Paper Mario or doing laundry; I want to pretend that everything is continuing on normally.

Before anyone gets too excited for me, it's just a job change. My program is winding down, so a bunch of us are being transferred. The company even has a system to help us with transfers instead of just tossing us out into the job pool on our own. The managers from different programs communicate about who is going to need to downsize and who is going to need to hire, and they help us make the switch to a new position.

This should be good - I feel like I've pretty much mastered my current position, the responsibilities are not challenging anymore (except for the actual volume of work to do which can be a lot), and we know our program is winding down.

I think it's fear, that feeling that has me all mixed up inside. What am I scared of? Just change. I don't like changing. Which is tough, because life is change.

Sunbeams

Yesterday's Sunbeam class went something like this:

-(me)Thank you D__ for saying the opening prayer. When you say a prayer, what's the very first thing you say?
-(G__)I'm a frog
-(me)Right now we're Sunbeams. What do we say first when we pray?
-(G__, jumping forward)I'm a frog
-(me)We're having lesson time right now. Please sit down.
-(G__, still jumping forward)I'm a frog
-(me)Please sit down on your chair.
-(G__)I'm a frog.
-(me)Please sit down, it's lesson time. We have an activity after the lesson.
-(G__)I'm a frog.

Repeat about 8 more times for the full effect.